excerpts from my journal

i have an oustandingly long google doc i use as a journal. here's some vaguely hopecore messages from that to lead you into 2025 wether you want time to move forward or not. find all the quotations from media and i shall personally award you nothing

i'm breathing

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fuck em up, or go down trying.

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always, i'll care

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this anger is a cycle, and I have the power to stop

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if love is the answer, we'll hold on.

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wherever you are, i'm sending you love. thank you.

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wholesome supervillain arc

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love, not spite. take care of yourself.

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chasing the sun that i can't see but i know it's there

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just vibe how you are, love how you love and life will go according to plan.

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through immense and vast darkness there still can be the slither of hope

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“she gave a smile that looked a little bad sad; and the thought that i had such a beautiful person in my life once crossed my mind."

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the cycle ends here. we must be better than this.

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there is forgiveness in this world

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something something laundry and taxes ect ect

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i will show kindness, grace, wisdom, humility and talent the likes my bloodline has never known

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everything, in time

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I think,

the most important thing in this world

is to love

and be loved

which is simple

yet incredibly hard

how does one know love?

truly?

and that's okay

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i refuse to let the ugliness around me desecrate the beauty within me.

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“i want a job i don't hate!” i declare

“i want to see friends and go for 5am runs and feel my life is in fact lived!” i cry

“i want to make music and have a functioning website, something, anything creative to show that i am capable of even the slightest level of beauty and accurate self expression!” i proclaim.

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I WILL LIVE FOR MYSELF.

I WILL CARVE MY LIFE INTO STONE.

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end transmission

so there we are! i'm excited for the new year. not much else to say